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"Create in me a clean heart oh God & renew a right spirit within me."-Psalm 51:10

  Everywhere I read or listen there is some talk about the new year; at least this past week (& I'm still holding on to the bit of Christmas that is left in my room with all the Christmas cards I have recieved)! Anyways, yesterday at 11AM our campas has caple, like we do three times a week (Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays) and the speaker spoke about, of course, 'The New Year'. Some parts will stuck out to me. Close to the end of him being done, he talked about a list of a couple of things and one of them was about, "If you are in the woods don't stop and sit or cry, find your way out of it," (something like that anyways). This really spoke to me because I kind of have been in the woods and have stoped in some way. Since summer and maybe a little before I have been wreastling with the SABBATH, including: When it is? Did it change days? What did the Ten Commandments say? What did Jesus do or say about the Sabbath? What did Jesus mean when h said...? Part of these questions also had to do with a book tha was dropped on my doorstep and other doorstep around me in the summer from a church that has church on Saturdays and no it's not Jahovah's winesses.

  All ths just makes me question where I am with God right now. I'm kind of confussed and need to come to a conclusion. I want to know more about church history and when everyone started to go to church during the Apostal Paul's time and why. I want to know the capital 'T' TRUTH. I read somewhere in a friend's class book that the new Christians that began to go to church couldn't get off from work to go to church, so I guess they just went when they had time? I want to know the right thing... I know there is truth because God is Turth and Jesus said, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me ( John 14:6)." I feel really torn and I don't want to confusse anyone else in the midst of my questioning. I have read and wrote a few things down in my devotional journal, but I think I still need more info. I know God is not the author of confussion. Plese pray for me with this, with school, family and friends interactions. I feel like I'm not being a good witness for Jesus right now because of this.  I really want a renewed clean heart and a right spirit as the above verse says.

  While this is all going on in my mind, I can still see God's great goodness and faithfulness through my family an friends! My mom is thinking about going to this one church called Bethel and I sure hope she does! Christy, as I said last night is doing much better and her kids are even talking about Jesus! I just hope she goes back to church even if it is just herself and I hope she does bring her kids and I just hope they get some new little Christian friends at Sunday school when they do go. There has been many things that has been going on and I've seen God giving strength and guidence to each of my family members and myself (especially with last semester! Yikes!). There are still some hard things going on with family and friends. Please pray for my Aunt Leah, her boyfriend, and her daughter Triteny.

Thanks to all of you who listen to me and any strong Chrisians out there before that have delt with these questions and got through them, please don't mind telling me what you have found out.

Oh! I also need prayer anf guidence for handing out these CD's and books that were mailed to me from my Nigeria, Africa friend. He wants me to pass them out to churches.

THNAKS!

~ Ashley

P.S.- Take a look at this cute lil girl baby that was taped. It is good humor! lol

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P_utET7TCMQ

Man... I can't wait till welcome weekend for TU on August 24th! I'm excited to meet my new roommate Britani and exsperience on-campus life head-on!

  I'm also glad to say... MY MOM DOSE NOT HAVE CANCER!!!

  Although, my mom has been thinking and talking alot to people about wnting a 'job change' in her life, not only a job change, but posibly moving somewhere where one of her friends live in a different state than here. You see my mom has 2 jobs, one she loves (because she feels like she's making a difference in kids' lives) and one she hates because the "upper" people just do not treat the main workers rightly (a factory job). I would love to see my mom get the full time job of being "Mrs. Adams" at the place she loves (with the kids/ teens), but she hasn't really got an 'okay' on that yet. She gets really stressed out easily at the factory job and it brings back so many other bad memories to her or makes her think of other things at home that is stressing her out, like bills for example.

  So, my mom has gotten me thinking of where I would live in the summer if she moves with her friend in Flordia. I thought about that I would need to move somewhere I could get a long with whom I'm staying with and a good place to find a good job. I think my Aunt Tina would be good, but I've thought of some others too.

  An other thing that has been on my mind is Christy. Please keep on praying for her whenever you remeber this blog. It sounds like things are going really swell right now for her with her kids, which I'm glad.happy: It's hard to let go, though, once you've been around someone for quit a while... and let God take control, which God has always been in control. I know He has! I can say that for sure because He is Good!

  I donno if that makes sense to anyone else, but it does to me. Go back through all the times I've asked for prayer and you will see that God hears everyone of them! Our prayers may not seem to be answered in the time, way, or place we want them too or may not even seem to be answered at all, but they all are. God is all knowing and He knows what is best... He listens to his children calling out to Him!

  Please keep me, my mom, my brother Josh (he needs a job/ college/ talking about going into the army again), and Christy!!! Oh yeah, and please say a prayer for my online friend Courteny, shes been having a rough time.

  Thanks!

  ~Ashley